There’s something that’s always troubled me about being fat. Actually, many things trouble me about being fat. The thing that’s the biggest sticking point for me is this: if I hate being fat so much (which I absolutely do) and I know that in order to change this I have to eat better (which I do) and exercise (yes, again), why then do I have periods where I fall off the train to thinsville? Why is a bad day, a rude person, some stressful situation involving work or family or a number of different issues enough for me to fall off the wagon? Why does it drive me towards my arch nemesis, Cheetos?
I don’t necessarily believe I have a food addiction, as some folks do. Rather, I think the main issue that keeps me overweight is my tendency to self-medicate with food. I get that I’m the one putting the Cheetos (or candy, or whatever bad stuff) in my mouth. What I don’t understand is why food is my one and only go-to for soothing me during stressful situations. Why can’t I switch out Cheetos for yoga or running or even Words With Friends? God knows I’ve tried. This automatically soothing myself with food feels all-consuming when it’s happening – no pun intended.
I started reading a few different books on the subject to try and get a handle on the situation. One of the action plans suggests doing an activity to distract yourself from the impulse to self-medicate with food (aka SMWF). So I’ve decided I’m switching food for French. Every time I get that urge to SMWF, I will instead do a new lesson of Fluenz, my new French learning software. It takes around 30 days for something to become a habit. I’m currently doing 1 lesson of French a day. I’m pledging to do an additional lesson of Fluenz every time I get the urge to run for the Cheetos. Here’s hoping with concerted effort on my part that in a month’s time, I will have ditched being a junk food addict for being bilingual.